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I’ve been throwing myself into everything I love and things that I don’t even care for in hopes that all the hard work will set me free. But it doesn’t work. Nothing could ever distract me from your subtle presence waiting around every corner. You lurk and you play this horrible game of wholesome emptiness on my organs. You say no and all my greatest passions become waveless bodies of water. It’s the quietest yet brightest crash and it hurts in the most addictive of ways. And I could sweat out all my blood, all my thoughts, all my soul. I could give up my entirety, my forever, my infinity. Still, nothing could change the fact that you live in my heart without ever wanting to be there.